Sunday, March 25, 2012

Uphill

Chickcharnee - tribal feather earrings - driftwood - chain - 18k gold - gypsy rustic

Chickarnee

Here's some earrings. They have stuff. And you know...feathers. Yeah. You may have noticed it's been a while since I blogged. I'm doing fine, physically. Still a little way to go, but getting there. Mentally? Emotionally? Drained. Exhausted. At the end of my tether. Hence the lack of blogging- every time I try it ends up being a big ol' therapy post, which I don't want. (This one is disguised as a shop update.) Turns out being in a near fatal car accident, losing your mother and having to have your 15 year old cat put down all in under 6 months can really take it out of a girl! But I don't want to end up being one of those blogs that's all introspective and listless. Don't mind me, I have a pathalogical Britishness that forbids me to focus on my own problems and see them as legitimate.


Here's some more earrings- someone bought these before the accident- I only just remembered they never paid up, so I relisted them. I like 'em. But looking at them now, I honestly am surprised at how creative they are. I don't currently feel I have that much creativity in me. everything i make lately gets taken apart again, it doesn't work. I've forgotten how to make jewelry.

Woden's prayer - rustic artisan crystal earrings - tribal princess - delicate everyday jewelry

Woden's prayer

Hey look- earrings! So weird that fanci and I both started getting into gold embellishment at the same time without telling each other, only I haven't listed any of mine till now. All the jewelry in this post has only just been listed, but it's all old- most of it was made before the 'big bang'.

milk thistle - antique lace wrist cuff - artisan bead - vintage buttons - shabby cottage

Milk thistle

On top of dealing with everything mentioned above, I have to move house in a month - the lease ends here and I can't afford to live here on my own (and don't want to) so any energy I have for life gets pumped into that. Where I'm moving to is so compellingly restful and lovely (more about that in another post) but cleaning out the house, having to sort out my mother's things and paring down my own possessions leaves little time or energy to make things, let alone something rewarding. I have been thinking about art though- a lot. Constantly. I'm having both new and reunited-with ideas, plans for large, messy things that you do not wear. Jewelry has been a love/hate battle for me for a long time now, I finally feel I'm ready to try something else. Not give up jewelry exactly (I've tried that before, never works!) but to put it aside and do... something that requires a drop cloth.



So there you have it. A miserable post (albiet with pretty pictures) that had to happen so I could break the ice with my blogging burn out. But as the sun leaves the sky each day and the dementors are free to roam, I do not dwell on the past. I find my thoughts turning always to the future. Never anxious, never grieving. My future is so bright, wearing shades would be ludicrously ineffective. We might need radiation sheilds here, kids.

21 comments:

artistic rejuvenations said...

based on what i've seen, no matter what you choose, the results will be amazing. good luck in your move. you are in so many prayers.

Beatnheart said...

Where do I begin... This could be as long as yer blog. Firstly.. I get the English part.. I'm married to one and know quite a few.. Yeah u peeps don't get all emotional or touchy feeley. BUT! I personally think that blogs can and should be for dumping and venting... Heck I'm from California! We love that shit here! Your followers I bet are lots of gurls who just want to cuddle and hold you and take care of you... Heck I don't even know you and I wanna... Ok...so cry baby cry. I woould lov e to get on the next plane and help ya move fer chrissakes. But saying that yer post did speak volumes about your feelings so good on ya.
I eagerly await any thing you have to say and if I donz't hear from you I get worried ... And I love lookin at your prutty pitch .
For some crazee ass reason you are getting kicked
harder than most could tolerate... You are the bravest Strongest beech on the planet.. If I wasn't so cheep I'd buy everything in your shop but I'm a thrift store magpie from way back and if costs more than a dollar I stress .
XxCynthia @ Beatnheart

Roberta said...

One of my criteria for blog reading is that not only am I exposed to someones art but also to their life. You have had your share and we out hear don't mind hearing about it. In fact we want to hear about it. Many of us didn't know about your accident until we started reading the blogosphere. You have a lot of good friends out here.
I am so sorry for your loss and I hope you can get back to your life and health soon.

Jackie said...

Ahh, Sparrow, it's so good to see you post again. I've missed you and I also wish I could get on a plane and come help you with your move. I'm glad you've found a happy sounding new place and I wish you tons of luck there. Beatnheart said it all so right, I'd consider myself one that would drop everything to be by your side to love, cuddle, hold you, take care of you and tell you all will be right again. You are so loved my so many peeps, we all send prayers, healing wishes and good thoughts to you. Bless you dear Sparrow!!
...Jackie xo

Birgitta Lejonklou said...

How lovely to read one post from You again! The move take Your energy of course and I hope this new place with be a god one for You to rest in....and heal..Muse wont leave You..I think the opposite..when stronger You work will be even more gorgeous (if possible!)
now is the spring of the Sparrow

just jen said...

That art spark is a deep well of strength to draw on.

Always there.

Waiting.

Once "life" settles it will rekindle.
Have no fear.

xo

Annette F Tait said...

beautiful pieces Penny - they will find loving forever homes I know.
Everything takes time, be kind to yourself, and yes, your blog is your therapy - it is You :)
you have many warm hearts out here who are wishing you good things and love .....
now if only I was in Melbourne and not goddam Edinburgh :) would be making you tea and cakes and helping you move

Spirited Earth said...

good to see a post from you ..
a move can be so challenging..but also can be cleansing. i hope your change of house goes smoothly and you love your new place.

mairedodd said...

you are human - and humans feel... so it is ok, no encouraged, to talk about it... (said the kettle to the pot) you have weathered more in 6 months than many do in a lifetime... healing is emotional as well as physical - one of the beautiful things about being here is that you have a tribe who cares about you... speak from the heart and you cannot go wrong...
thank you for sharing your beautiful creations...

13 said...

I know the packing side and physicality of moving is a massive stress. But it will allow you to literally close a door and open a new one, where you can create a fresh and explore in a new environment. And I think it shows in those beautiful earrings, there is a lightness there.

fanciful devices said...

ahhh...
astral tea and curry (or "cooking curry for tea" as you say) being sent your way. no cuddles, tho- eeeww! lol. i get not wanting to be THAT PERSON. not wanting to be flooded with well-meant sticky gushiness from all over the nets... i get it. not wanting it for yourself, not just not wanting to seem that way for others. you are still the tough many macho gal i lufs.

Leona Preston said...

And as we Brits do here say, keep your chin up! :) Thinking of you and wishing you the best for a complete recovery (both spiritually and physically). <3

Anthropomorphica said...

Trying times a hundredfold! I'm sorry to hear of all you've lost.I hope you find strenghth from the pain, that phoenix is rising!

crankypants said...

I sympathize greatly, I've moved 6 times in the past 10 years. Your new "nest" sounds like it is meant for you, and is waiting patiently for your arrival. Sending happiness and best wishes your way!

Chelsea said...

I've been following your difficult journey and haven't commented because I felt like I couldn't say anything that wasn't trite and would truly be able to convey the pain and sorrow I feel for you. I know you are a strong and courageous woman, that you will continue to grow and morph and find happiness in the changes that your life makes with or without your approval.

Whatever form your artistic expression takes, you know you will be accepted and--dare I say--adored--by those of us who follow you. I pray for you and your continued healing.

Sidereal Day said...

It's a lot to deal with in a very short amount of time. I can understand the instinct to keep your feelings to your self (I tend to do the same), but to echo some of the other comments here, don't feel bad about venting here if you need to, we understand.
I hope your move goes very smoothly and that your new place is relaxing and restorative for you.

Stacey Merrill said...

Hugs to you & best wishes for a creative day. Hope April is (relatively) peaceful for you. Lovely pieces - thanks for sharing

Jeannine said...

It was with great pleasure that I saw, this morning, that you had blogged again. Your work is such an inspiration to me and i had missed your musings and talent.

I hope your move goes well and that you continue to heal. My thoughts and prayers are with you. And! This was not a "miserable post." I may have never met you in the "real life" but I have been concerned just the same, and to read how you are doing was a comfort.

Good luck with everything. I'm excited to see more of your work in the future, whatever direction it may take.

Patty said...

Ah, you're there. Just having discovered your work and blog, I
was a bit worried for you. You make
lovely things! Take good care as you keep going and sharing what you make.

ArtPropelled said...

So sorry to hear about your torrid six months. Wishing you all the best for your move. It sounds like a wonderful place to continue healing. Good luck with the drop cloth experiments!

CeCe said...

Good to see you posting. When you are ready, create.. We will be waiting to see whatever it is. :)