Friday, August 17, 2012

The Quiet Earth

 plum tree blossoms outside my bedroom window

Despite what the calendar says, Australia actually has more than 4 seasons- according to the native inhabitants we have 6. As we alternate through ice cold pouring rain and warm sunshine this week, with the plum tree throwing out perfect little blossoms and the apple tree barely popping green, you can see that this time of year isn't really Winter or Spring, it's a funny kind of inbetween.

 rain on the apple trees

I feel a bit that way myself- life right now is not quite the slumbering quiet of winter- yet I haven't quite got to the point where I'm bursting out like a new bud, keen for adventures and new things. There are days that don't merit getting out of bed for longer than it takes to make tea and toast, and there are days when I think if I don't do 100 things before teatime then it's a wasted day.

 sunshine in the back yard

Creativity is at a stand-still while I (finally!) begin my psychology sessions for my post-traumatic. I've only had 3 rounds so far but I already feel a huge difference. Seeing the connections between my habits and circumstances, the common threads in my life (both negative and positive) has been enlightening and improving. Once you acknowledge the existence of something you have the power to remove the offending habits and cultivate the right ones; I've been doing both.


Though I'm not creating any actual jewelry right now, I am still constructing ideas and theories in my head. I find it odd that the muse should escape me for so long- she's not been truly at my side for some time, more recent creative endeavors have really only been my attempt to carry on without her, but it's not working. She isn't completely gone; I know she's laying low so I can concentrate on my therapy sessions and lay the foundation for what's to become. In the mean time I put my time into my vintage shop, knowing that it's just another way of clearing out the old and every bit as essential to Future Me as the professional brain scraping is. At the very least as I sort through things to bag and list, I know the decisions of what to keep and what to destash are intrinsic to forming the parts of a new whole.

9 comments:

Alice said...

I think its good your muse is laying low in order for you to concentrate on your sessions. I'm also glad you can already see progress.

Oh, and I couldn't help myself and had to purchase a couple of your destash lots. But please don't tell anyone because I'm supposed to be on a bead diet.

fanciful devices said...

but if she's laying low, how'd you make these photos? im glad your sessions are making a difference.

sue said...

You know it takes quite a lot of bravery and creative energy to focus on dealing with the things that hinder us. clearly it is working for you - onward and upward I say!

stregata said...

I also believe it takes great courage and very much energy to face the angels and demons within us. The adjustments you are making also require adjustments for your muse - if she is to lead you on your new path. After all, you can't go on dancing the same dance to a new song.

Gallery 13 - Lela Bouse-McCracken said...

Yes, looks like the quiet earth is gently waking up over there...just as your muse will. So glad that you're doing the therapy sessions & already feeling progress.

I looked at your stash listings and had to run away... so much cool stuff & I have just declared a moratorium on buying.

Patty said...

Be well. Your muse is well and taking
a vacation somewhere. It's fine and part of the story. Incredible photos!

Jayne said...

I am so glad your sessions are helping you. You are still being creative in a different way, sorting and destashing are all part of the process. You are doing so well, be kind to yourself. Jayne x

Flotsam Tide said...

Thank you for your core honesty and sharing not only your thoughts but beautiful photos of your private world with us. It takes a lot of courage to seek help and reflect on the habits that weigh us down just as it is incredibly positive to identify and solidify the values that make us stronger. Your muse is with you, elusive perhaps but ever present, she is felt in your photography, and words...
Much love

charmel tan said...

Even with the weird in between weather, You still captured a magnificent shots. They all look superb. Through your shots I can tell that you are truly talented.
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