Friday, May 9, 2014

Big Post of Feels and Projects

UGH- a month! It's been a month since I blogged! That is no way to run a railroad. I have been doing stuff though! Well mostly thinking, a little shop re-arranging, some dream making happening...

Okay let's run through what I've been doing. The catalyst was my 40th birthday at the start of April and surprisingly, that bought out a lot more stuff than I thought it would. Really, serious life questions. I didn't think turning 40 would be a big deal cause I usually don't go for all that society stuff. I don't think turning 40 was bad, just... a benchmark, I guess. Anyway most of it was down to the antique centre my dad and brother took me to, and how they had a ton of super awesome stuff I wanted to buy, but couldn't, because I don't have a real house to put it in and probably won't any time soon cause I was saving my life and money to go to England.

awesome things at local antique center - reminds me of my first 'proper' house back in the mid 90s

Some hard thinking later, I am no longer going to England. Shortest version of that story; I want a house, I want to get on with developing my career and I don't have the $14k required to go to England. That's fourteen thousand dollars. You can do a lot with that kind of money, and while happiness is important, I would rather go to England as an established person who has her life sorted out, not as someone who is hoping 3 months in England will sort the life out for her. So England is now about 4-5 years away.

Making this decision changed everything. Everything. My whole outlook has changed. I really had no idea how depressing day to day life had become, to not be able to buy household goods and furnishings, and to have to save every dollar I could spare (and that ain't a lot). I didn't actually realise being able to buy household goods was that important to me (though I know I'm a huge fan), but if I can go to an antique centre and be close to tears because 'I want that cupboard', that's got to mean something. And it does; the homes we live in must be comfortable and beautiful and reflect our own passions and aesthetics. The home is the spiritual center of a modern person, it is our comfort and our refuge. The home has always been important to me, and I haven't had a proper one for almost 3 years now.

In choosing to stay in Australia a while longer I've suddenly been able to start planning my life instead of feeling like I'm on hold. Now I have the goal that by the end of the year, I will be in a house I can call mine, with all my stuff around me and plenty of space to do what I want to do. And be able to have the family over to admire my white tinsel Christmas tree and my vintage candy shop themed kitchen and my entire room just for packing and shipping. Which I shall call the Post Office.

Etsy-wise things have changed. Fagins is back to selling just supplies and I have a mountain of stuff to add to it, since I've finally given up jewelry for the last time ever (properly!) and bagged up the last of my supplies. Once I get rid of my destash, Fagin will close. In saying that, it will no doubt last another year, since not only do I have a mountain of beads n stuff, I also have suitcases full of paper ephemera, fabrics, hand dyed textiles and yadda yadda. I also have a lot of supplies I bought to make scratch-built supplies, so I'll probably be doing that as my creative output and offering those.

Sparrow Salvage has been emptied of the last of my jewelry and I'll be having a giveaway sometime next week in order to pass along the last few things left from that stage of my life. I don't want to keep anything; I have a folder full of pictures that I can reminisce over, that's all I need. But sparrow salvage does not die, it transforms! Like a classy butterfly, it is now my vintage flagship store. It's where jewelry, fashion, homewares and whatever else takes me fancy will be listed.

 vintage bells - listed and sold

I want to be a vintage dealer for a profession, I've known that for years. I want to have a bricks n mortar for this eventually, and I hope to be exploring options for that this time next year. And I always knew that when that time came, it would be called Sparrow Salvage. My bricks and mortar will be more than just a vintage shop, but that comes down the track. For now I concentrate on my internet presence. Which includes pumping up my blog activities. I'll be moving my blog to my new website, more for a fresh start than anything else. When that happens I'll be putting up a last post here with the new blog linked so that anyone who wants to follow can do so.

I've also just opened a new shop for my photography. I was really creative with the name - Penelope Neil. I didn't go with a cute name because I don't want it to be one of those photography shops that just sells home decor prints. I mean that's what they are, but they're more than that. It's a hobby shop right now, but I want to develop a side-career as a freelance photographer for home and lifestyle magazines so it's operating as a motivator as well.

On top of all that I've just become the leader of the Australian Vintage team on Etsy! A position I volunteered for as the Aussie vintage sellers on Etsy really need a strong supportive base both for exposure and camaraderie. It's very quiet there right now- it went into hibernation when the captain's life overtook all his time. I'm hoping to get it pumped back up again because I want it to be huge, and i have a million ideas for how to expand it.

So that's the ridiculous amount of thinking and doing I chewed up the entire month of April with. But hey- I've always been the kind of girl who likes to overburden herself. Also I'm 40 now.


willowstudio said... Best Blogger Tips

Sounds like an excellent 40th b-day to me. Decisions can be ever so helpful, eh?
Happy Birthday Ms. Neil, and many happy returns.

brenda Salzano said... Best Blogger Tips

As I perused the line of blogs to read this morning, yours was the only one that jumped out to me. I find I am on a very similar road of change. I have also been slowly getting out of making and selling jewelry. The market is so huge I am lost in that, plus I have no passion for it now. I am also wanting to move and your description of how tight money is and how it affects our creativity and visions of where we want to live and grow is exactly how I feel. Plus at 62 I have gotten alopecia and for a women that is hard! But as you end your post I see the hope and good outlook you have set your mind on, and I have too. This is what will divide those who are successful and those who quit. You will be all that you have set your mind too , just have to take some different paths to it!! Me too. I am selling my home for far less than I needed too but the future depends on me having faith and not loosing my dream and hope for where I want to be. So as a fellow artist, craftsmen etc Cheers and Congrats on your changes for the better!! ;-)

Vintajia Adornments said... Best Blogger Tips

Having your life on hold and waiting is very destructive. Bravo for grabbing hold of life and steering it in the direction you wish to go. And happy Happy Birthday as well!

Ellen said... Best Blogger Tips

Thank you so much for a "real" and truthful blog, so many are not.
My life is also going through a huge change at the moment as after very unexpected surgery in December to remove a malignant tumour, I am now "set aside" from all my usual activities, art groups etc. and have really been re-evaluating everything I have been doing and just what it is that is the most important to me, after family and friends of course.
As I think, and pray, I work in the garden...when I have some energy and being so connected to the outdoors is just therapy for me and somehow frees my spirit to really soar and with it comes the truth of who I am.
I am 67, an artist mainly working in textiles, I used to be an antique seller years ago, and had a 3 year "business" on ebay selling antique lace and textiles....I wouldn't go back to that, so am managing on little money but glorying in being free.
I don't know what the future holds, but it's good...and I am positive, and praise God my creativity has returned after a 4 month absence.
Thank you has encouraged me to read your truthful blog, I haven't been on mine for is called Fragments...Ellen Devall.blogspot ( I think!)
My blogger email is not working, so here is one you can rech me at, if you would like to reply;
Bless you,
Ellen in a caravan in the UK x

Ellen said... Best Blogger Tips

I forgot to say that it is the 6 months of gruelling chemotherapy that has "set me aside".

Ellen said... Best Blogger Tips

I forgot to add that it is the 6 months of chemotherapy that has "set me aside".

Lucie said... Best Blogger Tips

Happy belated birthday Penelope!!! This benchmark seems very constructive, bravo for all the decisions! The feeling of waiting or being passive is a nasty one, I'm glad you're over that. And bravo for the position of Captain AND the photography shop. All this is promising, keep going!